Wednesday, April 30, 2008

What's a Girl to do???



So I'm horrible at trying to get this thing up to date with my life... perhaps when school ends I will find the time to do this consistently. Anyway... so graduation is quickly approaching (9 days actually)... and I find myself getting slightly uneasy about what is to come. No not the up coming marriage or summer job opportunity... or even the fact that I don't know what kind of job I will have after I get married... none of that worries me at all. However, I have grow to absolutely love my church family here in Campbellsville at the Vineyard... and slowly it is beginning to completely break my heart at the thought of being away from this church for months. My weekends this summer are filled with weddings and showers... there is just no possible way that I can make the 3 hour drive every weekend... especially not with gas prices the way they are. So now I find myself crying out to God to show me what to do... I love the people at home but the church... well I'll just say I'm not getting fed the proper food there! This isn't a time for bashing my home church... no not at all... I just strongly feel like I need something more... so what's a girl to do??? I could visit different churches but that would just seem weird in my town, there's not much there. But then I thought... there is this one church... Grace Fellowship, I always thought they were a little crazy in high school but perhaps it was because I didn't know any better... or rather I didn't know what I was missing. So I messaged my friend Tiffany (long time friend and neighbor who attends this church)... and she begins to describe in a simple message how that church works... and I must say it sounds very similar to the Vineyard... not to mention she said that they would love to have me if I wanted to visit to try it out! So now I'm torn... I continue to pray... I need something new, something that will feed me for the months that I will be at home... but I don't want my family to think I hate going to church with them... no that's not it... I'm just hungry for more of God! Does anyone understand? What's this girl to do?

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